A question of power.

I had this dream last night about someone I know in blog-land, actually. But no one reading this, I imagine, so no need to get creeped out. We've never really exchanged words. But in this dream, she was all rocking the transmasculine which meant I was falling all over myself and the one thing I really remember was that she was sitting on a couch, and just looked at me and said "Sit." So I dutifully sat on the floor leaning back on her legs. I've had that dream before, or at least train of thought before, if I'm daydreaming while awake. I think I would just love it if someone who looked like that were to just look at me and give me a command like that. It makes my knees all weak just thinking about it.

I wonder what that says about me. I don't mean that in a negative sense. Just makes me think more about who attracts me. I know I've said that I hate having more power in a relationsihp than the other person. Well, maybe that's not the right way to say it. I prefer someone else to kind of take control of things. I don't want to be totally dominated and have them never ask my opinion, but you know what I mean?

Guess I'll just have to see if I have any more strange dreams tonight. I'm exhausted. Goodnight!